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Open Question: why am I so emotionless? and more... Open Question: why am I so emotionless?I'm 17, 10/29/08 my best friend killed himself, and idk why but it didn't really affect me emotionally at all(I never talked to anyone about it). A couple weeks ago I moved from Michigan to Tennessee to get away from my mom and her dick boyfriend and I don't even miss any of my friends or family. when i was 13 my stepdad (my dad ditched out on me before i was born and i have no clue who he is(and that doesn't affect me emotionally either) and my stepdad got with my mom before i was 1 so he was always like my real dad) got addicted to meth and started getting really aggresive,he was constantly yelling at everyone and breaking evertying and he threatened to kill us several times, my mom finally ended up divourcing him and that didn't affect me either. Not even a year after that my mom ended up getting with some asshole who was constantly being a dick to me just for his entertainment. she then had a kid with him even tho we were already struggleing with money. and none of that affected me either . About 6 months ago I started thinking about killing myself, which really confuses me because compared to alot of people my life is good, and at first i didn't think anything of it but it was constantly getting worse, about 4 months ago I started cutting and once again I have no clue why, I just randomly get urges to do it and the more i ignore it the worse it gets and the the longer i wait the deeper i end up cutting, so I guess I do have emotions but... well I can't really feel them. and also I remember almost nothing that happened in my life past age 14 but from what I've been told all of my cousins and my sister and step brother were constantly making me miserable. When ever someone ask me to list good qualities about myself i freeze because I can't think of any. I have a lot of people that i chill with but I don't have any true friends, i've had 3 good friends in my life, 2 turned out to be backstabbing ***holes who were just using me and the other killed himself. I've had a few girlfriends but i didn't love any of them, I've actually never loved anyone, not even family, and that really disturbs me. last year i spend 2 months in juvie because my mom called the cops and said that i threatened to kill her even though i could never threaten to kill someone, and then told me that i got what i had coming because i did bad in school even tho i tried my hardest i just could never concentrate on anything longer then 2 minutes. I've been like that my whole life and when i was going to school it made my life hell because of all the trouble i'd get in at home for failing classes. there were a few years in my life where i was really bad with my mom, constantly flipping out and cussing her out, I finally got it under controll last year but she still constantly throws it in my face and acts like I'm a horrible person even though i hated myself after every fight i got in with her. I've had a couple therapist, and I've been in an anxiety counselling group and idk why but i could never tell them about wanting to kill myself and cutting, i really couldn't tell them any of my problems, I always feel like an ***hole when i complain about my life because there are sooo many people out there that have it so much worse then me. Sorry for all of the typing i know that no one wants to real all of that, i just got in sordove a trance when i started typing and couldn't stop, half of those were suppressed memories i didn't remember until i started typing, that's why all of the events i put are in a completely random order I can't believe i left this out but 8/27/06 my cousin, the only person i could ever talk to about anything personal died of a heroin overdose, he wasn't a bad person, he was the only person in my family that cared about me and tried to make sure i didn't screw up my life like he screwed up his Open Question: Would you say it's in my best interest to leave him after this?So this is kind of my fault. I told my boyfriend about my fantasy to get spanked by a guy, and he said he'd be glad to do that for me. Problem is he hit me far harder than I could handle and basically held me down refused to stop until I had tears in my eyes. I did tell him to quit, but he thought I was playing a game...like the whole being punished and begging for mercy thing. So he continued. Now, hours later my butt is still really tender to the touch...feels as if there's internal bruising or something. When he asked why I was crying, I told him that I was totally serious about telling him to stop, and he did apologize and said I could kick him in his balls if I wanted. He asked if he could give me a back rub or if I just wanted him to get out of my house, and I told him I didn't really care what he did, so he pulled up a chair next to my bed and rubbed my back until I fell asleep. So he is remorseful, but now I'm kinda scared of him. Should I continue to date him accepting that it was my fault or leave him? Open Question: I really need advice on this reltionship.?Please take this serious. I'm having problems with my boyfriend, Aaron. The beginning of this relationship, Everything was fine. Later we started fighting. A week after the fight we was okay. After I had sex with him, things started going down hill for awhile because of a pregnancy scare. I still don't know if i am pregnant. I'm getting test soon though. Me and Aaron, are fighting like crazy. He's distance himself away from me. But when it comes to sexual things. Buddy he's not distance anymore. He talks to me like im some friend or stranger. He says its because of drama. Me actually? I don't start drama. I hate drama. I just share my feelings about stuff. Any thing i say to him, he blows up at me. Most likely im going to end up with all the blame. He said if we break up and im pregnant hes not going to be in the picture because we live an hour away. If i am pregnant, I feel like he's just going to leave me because he doesn't wanna kid or he doesn't wanna take care of it. Part of me feelings like he got what he wanted, hes done. The only reason hes hanging on me is because I was his first. I'd have never lost my virginia to someone I thought would treat me like this. Please help. Sorry it's long. Open Question: What should ido???? cheating boyfriend?my best friends boyfriend cheated on her however i dont have direct proof and its also been a rumor around school and found out it is true also she has been in the hospital 2 months straight with health problems i dont know what i should do cause her bf visits her everyday and were all friends with him but he cheated on her multiple times but she is really sick so should i still tel her? also its the love of her life cause the girl he cheated with is telling people but we have all tried to stop these rumors and now i find out its true but also its the love of her life Open Question: I need to get out of an abusive relationship- long story involved?Please guys, serious and helpful comments only please. Im seriously begging for help here. I am 25 years old and had a baby in 2007 with a man I was in a relationship for 3 years. My babys daddy was really abusive while I was pregnant, before and after. He did ****** up **** like chased me around with a tazer, and controlled everything in my life. I don't want any haters to ask me what the hell I was thinking. It's really un explainable. My mom was in an abusive relationship and I used to always tell her I had no sympathy for her because she was the one who chose to be in that relationship and could have gotten out of it sooner than she did. I never understood until I was in one myself. It's unexplainable. It's not that I didn't think I didn't deserve someone better I just was scared to leave, scared he would find me, kill me, start my parents house on fire or do numerous things he had threatened on a daily basis. When I called the police on him it really didn't do any good. It was ridiculous what the police called "help." Sure they helped me press charges and they pressed charges but nothing good came from any of it and it only made my life more difficult. Anyway, I ended up leaving him when he got physical infront of our daughter for the first time and her and I went to a shelter for 3 months and then I had resources from being in the shelter and they helped me get into a program that paid a partal amount of my rent so I could afford to have a place for my daughter and I. I never kept her from him, we worked out a custody agreement....he is a good dad when we are not together but a terrible dad when we are together because of the way he treats me infront of her. My daughter does not need to experience that, witness that or be in the middle of the abuse. It was 50/50 custody and it toally sucked for the first few months because I couldn't stand not having my 1 and a half year old daughter with me all the time, but I got used to it because I had no choice and I wasn't going to get back with him just so I could have her everyday. She was better off sharing custody with her parents than witnessing an abusive relationship. I was apart from him for 8 months and then I had 4 girls jump me at my apartment complex (one of them was supposed to be my best friend), they decided to jump me over the stupidest thing ever..... I had a new boyfriend and wasnt hanging out with her as often as before and she was upset about it and wouldn't compromise her time for me spending time with my new boyfriend. Well when I got into this fight the cops were called by a neighbor and we all got tickets because we were all fighting even though they started it and I was just defending myself. Im not going to let 4 girls jump me without a fight, of course I was going to defend myself and fight back. Because we all got tickets we all got kicked out of our apartments and out of the government program we were in. I was terrified with where I would go. I have no family. My mom and dad live in a different state along with most of my family except the ones I refuse to live with because they are meth addicts or do not have a good living condition that I would want to bring my daughter into. I was going to go live with a friend for a few months while she tried to help me figure out how I could live in my own apartment with my daughter but Steve saw this as his way back in (I didn't think about that at that time but I realize this now) so he begged for me back, cried and pleaded, said he didn't want to loose me and that he had changed, and that he would go to anger management classes. This went on for weeks of him sincerely asking for me to give him another chance. I stupidly did beaing nieve and thinking that maybe I could give it one more chance. Everything was great for 3 months, we didn't argue, he respected me and talked with me when problems arose instead of arguing or attacking me or making me feel like I was stupid or something was my fault. He went over finances with me, spent time with us and just was the perfect guy...prince charming.....everything I had always hoped I could have with my baby's daddy. I love him and want to grow old together and have a bigger family. Everything was perfect. For the last 2 months he has slowly been getting worse, arguing with me over any small disagreement, yelling at me infront of our daughter, not calling me to check in after 10 hours of being gone. Im not his probation officer but I think it is just respectful to check in with your family to let them know how your day is going, when you may be expected to come home, just common respect in my eyes. I show him that respect and he expects it, almost demands it but yet he doesn't give me the same respect. We don't talk like best friends anymore, we don't laugh together, have conversations, go out on dates, I feel like when we talk it is business. Like he will day things like "hey do you know where this is, can you find it for me? Hey can you goo google this for me?" It's like when we talk it is just on business type terms not normal loving conversations.Anyway, he got physical with me infront of my daughter over the stupidest thing last night. I asked him if my daughter and I could go up to my grandparents for a couple of hours on Christmas because my parents are coming out out for christmas. He blew up saying he isn't allowed up there so no and to shut my mouth about the topic. Well here comes another bad part about this situation... He is my moms brother and he raped me. I was nutral about abortion, he didnt believe in abortion and neither did my family after we spent a thousand dollars on genetic testing to see if our baby would be deformed. My daughter is amazing, healty and totally up to the level she should be at in all developmental aspects.....thank god. Well, this is why he is not allowed at my parents, my dad hates him to death and has every reason to. I need help, any resourses you guys might have to help me, thank Open Question: Does my boyfriend like my bestfriend?So. I have this boyfriend. We've been going strong for 7 months and he has been completly faithful, i trust him with anything. But lately he's been talking to my best friend a lot, like 2 hour conversations at night. I trust him and her, but my best friend told him he called her sexy and she had a nice body, i confronted him about it he admitted it and apologized and knew that was wrong. But sometimes he will even talk to her instead of me when i call. They talk about OUR realtionship problems with each other.. And probably about me, am i being insecure or should i watch this?? Thank you. Happy Holidays! :). More Recent Articles |
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